I don’t care if my legs tremble during Warrior poses. I need to run.

I have to tell you about my run on Friday.  Don’t worry, this isn’t an “I ran 28 miles on Friday morning, how crazy is that?” kind of story.  Rather, this is something of a love story, or maybe a “We renewed our vows” story.  Let me start by setting the scene:

Last week was my second week post-50K, and I planned to do some running – easy, casually, and as I felt inclined.  Then, I got bowled over by cross-training:

1. Tuesday was a public holiday, and so there were special classes at the gym. I opted for yoga and an extended cardio/strength combo class.  Both awesome, but involved nothing more than a few quick laps around the cardio studio.

2. Run With Holly will be leading some group runs from the newly opened Lululemon East Coast Showroom, so I spent a day or two meeting and doing a bit of yoga with the lovely ladies who own and manage the shop.

3. I’m in the final phase of RPM instructor training: Team-Teaching.  I spent a lot of time last week on the spin bike – shadowing, practicing, and teaching.

I'm loving this view more and more.  But preferably when my legs are spinning!

I’m loving this view more and more. But preferably when my legs are spinning!

Still, when Thursday rolled around, I said to KMN, “Wow.  Despite all the spinning and everything that I’ve been doing, my legs feel AWESOME.  I can squat so much weight in BodyPump, and my legs have been feeling really fresh on the bike, too!”

As the words were coming out of my mouth, I had my ‘DUH’ moment: That’s what happens when I’m running 15-20 miles per week, rather than 40+ miles per week, on top of all that other stuff.  Right.

And so I started thinking.  “Hmm…maybe I could get used to this.  I love how fresh my legs feel for other activities.  I’m getting plenty of exercise, both strength & cardio.  Maybe it’s time to *gasp* dial back the running a tad.”

For a few hours, that actually sounded like a reasonable idea (nevermind the fact that I just spent the last 8 months building my base up to 40+ miles per week).   I didn’t make any firm decisions, but I was toying with taking a little running reduction to focus on some other activities for awhile.

So that was my state of mind on Friday morning.  Now we can cut to the actual story:

On Friday morning, a felt like I might want to go for a run.  I didn’t have plans to spin that day, so I figured it would be a good day to test out my knee with a short run.  So I rolled out of bed and put on my running clothes.  But life got in the way, and I tended to emails, phone calls, chores, etc…and before I knew it, the clock said 4 PM.  I was substantially less enthused about the idea of running at 4 PM than I had been early that morning.  But I had evening plans, and 4 PM was my “now or never” moment of truth.

So I pretended that it wasn’t the hottest part of the day.  I put on my sunglasses, threw on my sneakers, grabbed my house key and headed out the door.  And do you know what happened next?

I didn’t care that it was hot.  I didn’t care that the sun was beating down.  I didn’t care about the traffic.  I didn’t care that I opted to forgo a shirt, and was making a slight spectacle of myself by running in just shorts and a bra top (pretty uncommon in Singapore).

I just ran.
I felt the breeze on my face (and stomach)!
I felt like I could really breathe – my lungs felt enormous and open.
I felt grounded, as my feet connected and pushed off the pavement.
I felt open, and free, and ready to fly.
I felt relaxed.
I felt release.
I felt endorphins.
I felt alive.
I felt freaking awesome.

And I was reminded – for the millionth time – why I run.  [Incidentally, why are we humans so forgetful, that we still need reminders of really obvious things?]  And just like that, my plans to dial back my running were dismissed.  I wondered how I could even contemplate such craziness!

So what if I have to hold my Warrior poses with trembling legs?  So what if my legs burn a little extra as I lead my class through a hill track?  So what if my alarm clock goes off at 5 AM for 10 miles?  So what if I have to sneak in hot afternoon miles on the days I ignore the alarm clock?  I don’t even care.  I just don’t care.  Let me run.  I want to need to run.

Of course, there is a time and place for everything.  There are seasons of my life when I run more, and some when I run less.  If I am genuinely and truly burnt out, I do turn away for awhile.  But I always find myself drawn back.  I can’t help it.  I can’t resist it.  My sneakers, my Garmin, “my” trails…they call my name.  They draw me in, they send me outside, and they give back to me ten times more than what I give them.

 

PS Last week, I said I finished my  Stretch of the Week Intro post thanks to some self-bribery.  Gummy Bear Mama asked what that bribe was, and I promised a photo.  Here you go:

Chocolate chip cookie dough!  Made safely (egg-free) from this recipe.  Not exactly a healthy fanatic's dream, but a little indulgence is fine once in awhile.  I used peanut butter instead of yogurt, so I had peanut butter chocolate chip cookies.

Chocolate chip cookie dough! Made safely (egg-free) from this recipe. Not exactly a healthy fanatic’s dream, but a little indulgence once in awhile is totally fine. I used peanut butter instead of yogurt, so I had peanut butter chocolate chip cookies.  This tasted terrible, so I had to eat it all myself….

“Real” raw cookie dough, “Safe” raw cookie dough, pre-processed cookie dough nibs, or “Bake my cookies please”?

Runners: When was your last “jump up and down screaming ‘I love running!'” (on the inside, or the outside) moment? 

What’s calling your name today?
[Coffee, blogging, the spin studio, and possibly BodyAttack.]

20 thoughts on “I don’t care if my legs tremble during Warrior poses. I need to run.

  1. Karen@ La Chanson de Ma Vie

    Bake my cookies please! I don’t get the appeal of raw cookie dough…but I know I can’t keep my husband’s hands out of the bowl while I make them and somehow I get salmonella. Even if you’re being “good” and not eating raw things, some piggy that didn’t wash their hands after using the bathroom can still give it to you the same way you get the flu. At least that’s how the health dept. thought I got it. Bleh. Moral of the story: if you like raw cookie dough and sushi, have at it!! 🙂 🙂

    My allergies have been really bad lately, so not too many of my runs have felt fantastic. Hopefully they let up soon.

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    1. Holly @ Run With Holly Post author

      The good thing about some bad runs is that they make the good ones (when you finally get to them) even sweeter!

      I’m trained as a Biochemist, and used to be totally compulsive about not eating under-cooked eggs. But I really enjoy runny yolks (and serving them that way out here is pretty common practice), so I’ve decided – for now – to take the risk. I just hope that whoever prepares them washes his/her hands!!!!!

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  2. Amy

    I 100% prefer baked cookies. CCCD ice cream is not my friend, either. But give me warm, fresh out of the oven cookies+ vanilla ice cream and I love it. My last running <3 moment was on Sunday during my race. Hands Down. Running 26.2 does it to me every time.

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    1. Grace

      Also on running: I’d say that ‘I LOVE running!’ feeling overtakes me (ha ha) at some point on 50% of my runs. Last night at the track, on the last of seven 800s, I did a little ballet leap right at the end to finish.

      About 40% of the time I sort of like running. And 10% of my runs/ time spent running is just plain terrible.

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      1. Holly @ Run With Holly Post author

        No one said you have to love it all the time – that 10% makes the 40% seem awesome, and the 50% out-of-this-world.

        And seeing a zebra crane really cranks the “LOVE” to “LOVE LOVE LOOOOOVE!”, no? 🙂

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  3. Sarrilly

    Drool. I love me a good choc. chip cookie, but will always settle for some cccd ice cream! Although I’m kind of the opposite of the typical “warm out of the oven” choc. chip cookie-lover. I loooove sticking them in the freezer so that it is chewier and the chocolate melts slowly in your mouth! mmmmm…

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    1. Holly @ Run With Holly Post author

      You are a bit weird in that regard…but would get on very well at my parent’s house – Mom makes ccc’s, then sticks most of them in the freezer (so my Dad doesn’t gobble them all at once!) – so the freezer is a pretty good bet if you’ve got a hankering for a cookie! =)

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  4. Nicole @ Work in Sweats Mama

    Why choose between cookie dough and cookies. I want both. Cookie dough while the cookies are baking, and then fresh, gooey, still-warm cookies right out of the oven. Hmmmm, now I really want a cookie! Love this post! Don’t you just love it when you have a run like that, a run that reminds you how much you love it?!

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  5. Kristen L

    LOVE when a run feels great like that!! It is funny how we need reminders of how much we love it sometimes. But a little break rejuvenates you too.

    I love cookie dough. And cookies. Mmmmm. Now I need to go home and bake. 🙂

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  6. Meagan

    Congrats on landing your group run gig! And congrats on your “reawakening” to your love of running 🙂 I live for those days. My last “OMG I love running” moment was at the end of my 20 miler. I was so tired but I felt so accomplished! I am yearning for that feeling again.

    Re: eating things with raw eggs. As a food scientist my answer is don’t do that! Or if you are going to, don’t hold the company that made the product (intending for it to be cooked prior to consumption) responsible when you do get sick. Or find/make cookie dough with pasteurized eggs, if you must have eggs in it. That being said, I do occasionally eat those performed sugar cookies that show up around the holidays raw. But if I get sick I know its my own fault. 🙂

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    1. Holly @ Run With Holly Post author

      The “raw” cookie dough recipe that I use doesn’t have eggs. I don’t take that kind of unnecessary risk. 🙂

      I save the risk for when it really matters, like eating the yolks runny. =) (Much better, right?) I’m trained as a biochemist – I know that there’s a risk in raw eggs, and for a long time, I refused to eat them. But I really do love a runny yolk, so nowadays…I just cross my fingers. This will last exactly as long as it takes me to get my first bout of food poisoning that I attribute to undercooked eggs…

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      1. Meagan

        You should be pretty safe with sunny side up eggs with the yolk runny. Usually any salmonella is in the white part of the egg, so as long as that’s cooked through you should be good. If you mix the white part of the egg with the yolk at all, though, it’s a good idea to cook it all the way through. 🙂

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        1. Holly @ Run With Holly Post author

          Interesting! I’ll admit that I didn’t know salmonella was mostly in the white. Usually the two aren’t mixed (I cook my scrambled eggs all the way); so maybe I’m safe? But although I’ll enjoy my runny yolks, I’ll probably still stick to egg-free raw dough. 🙂

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